Well actually tonight I've got nothing to do and it just made me think about my walk with God. I have to be honest and say that it isn't where I want it to be. I guess you could say that my walk with God is only so-so and there is much improvement to be made. I really need to start trusting him more and listening much much more. I've been asking for so much but never seemed to get the answers as I haven't exactly been listening to God for these answers. With so much noise and distractions of the world, I guess I haven't sat down in the quiet and just listen to God's voice. I really need to get into the habit of that but I just can't bring myself to doing it. I guess I keep getting distracted by other stuff such as facebook and computer games.... I've constantly been journaling every night but I don't know if its effective. Sometimes I really do wonder if it is even helping me walk closer with God. Hernshung says it has made him grow closer to God but I guess thats after a really get my head straight and make God the center of my life. Thats an objective I have and hopefully I can accomplish it by the end of this year with the upcoming mission trip and youth camp.

THANK GOD FOR MINQHEE! Really there are some friends in this world you must have and she falls into that category. Thank you so very much for letting me share my problem with Chrissy with you. I didn't mean to burden you with my problems and I really thank you for lending a listening ear as well as giving me some advice on how to deal with it. I'm so glad I have the privilege of going on the mission trip with you! :)

Dear God,

I know you're there and I know you have a wonderful plan for me. I know that you'll provide for me things and people like a girlfriend or a best friend when the time comes. I just pray that you'll help me to believe more in this. I know you will provide, it just doesn't seem to sort of 'strike' me. I really do pray that you'll mold me to become like Minqhee, who fully trust you that you'll provide no matter what and that then maybe I'll stop asking for things of this world.

Amen

Thank God for Hernshung too! He is really a great brother and friend to me. I met up with him on Friday for dinner at garden's market. I just shared with him the problems I was facing right now and he gave me some good advice. It was also a time to look back to reflect on how my walk with God was like and how I could improve my relationship with God. He gave me some good pointers to take back such as to start listening more instead of always asking and to maybe start journaling which I did yesterday with my first entry! :)

Today was first mission trip preparation session! WOOT! Today we basically had a small ice breaker in which we were to write what you liked about each person and what you look forward to in each person. I have yet to read mine so I'm gonna read it once I finish blogging! Haha! After that was a presentation from each group about the different areas that they had been assigned the previous week. Me, Audrey and Nicole had thought of a few post-mission trip activities on how we can encourage people to go on mission trips. Finally we set 3 objectives for the mission team. They are:

1) Bonding with and blessing each other

2) Spiritual - Hebrews 10:24-25

3) Physical - Bring a smile to the people's faces

Saturday morning was spent finalizing Joel's and my IHS coursework until around 1+ till we finally submitted it to our teacher via email. The afternoon was used to blackshot a bit before heading for SOMY (School Of Ministry for Youth). I went there about 30 mins early to meet up with Russ, Daniel and Hernshung for the tea that the organizers provided. UNFORTUNATELY, my teeth still hurt so I had to pass on the tea and just watch the other 3 eat...sianz. The session about organizing games by Pastor Bernard was quite enjoyable with him teaching us some important pointers about games, letting us play some ourselves and showcasing some of his collection of toys and books. After the session, Hernshung drove me, Russ, Daniel and Dom to gardens to eat at chomp chomp. But since the place was as packed as ever, we went to the market instead and I got to eat...porridge...sianz man can my teeth stop hurting so I can go back to eating normal food...zzz. Anyways after a good dinner with a vibrant conversation about the different mega-churches, Hernshung kindly sent us home with me being the first to be dropped-off. The conversation in the car was mainly about our youth ministry and some points were raised about certain things we were unhappy about, oh well...

Today was 11.15am service, lunch at market and then mission trip training. Sadly today there wasn't YM and so I went with blossom and a few others for service. After service I met up with Jonathan and we went to market with Ming Xuan and Caleb for lunch. Minqhee and Clara subsequently joined us there for lunch. Guess what I had for lunch....PORRIDGE AGAIN....oh well healthy living haha! After lunch me, Jonathan, Minqhee and Clara hurriedly made our way back to church just in time for the 3rd mission trip training. This time Andy was leading the session about the history of missions in TMC as well as a bit about MMS and MMC. It was nice to know that TMC is the methodist church that has sent out the most pastors, one of them being my uncle, Rev Malcolm Tan. Kudos to TMC! Haha! From Audrey's devotion today at mission training, I shall challenge myself to be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to anger. Hopefully I can do it and not get angry or make anyone angry during the course of this week. And yes I must remember to pass Minqhee my chinese compo notes next week. Remember! Haha